late update
a late post on what happened the day after my screwed up Public Speaking.
classes were on as usual but ended at about 1 so me and two other friends head back to the hostel to get some rest before going for PS. i was freaked but not frozen..kinda like, i have to get this right and yet i'm not in a panicky mode.
fast forward, we get back to college and sit in the canteen to wait for 4 o' clock [the second session] cause she's not taking anymore people in the first session. me and my friend practise on each other and for some reason, i can't seem to talk properly but that's how i am with public speaking.
four o' clock comes and we head to the lecture hall where she is. she's actually nice to us and three out of five people go before me. she comments that the first girl was reading too much from her notes and i'm afraid she'll say the same for me. i enjoyed my other two friends' talks and am thinking to let the other girl go first when she calls me to go out. i say ok and begin. then she asks me if that was so hard and why wasn't i prepared the first time and did i know i was going to have to speak the first time. i then told her 'no' and said i did think it was my fault. she said she thought so too [lol] but it was an unnessecary bashing i got that day. the last girl speaks and it's end of session. she gets the five of us to pick up stray pieces of trash around the hall then she asks me to carry her books for her to her car. by this time, i'm freaked. she was really mad before and today she's really nice?? ... so anyway, i do that and along the way, she talks to me, asking questions like where am i from, am i happy here because she can see that i am [even scarier..] and then she offers to drive me and my two friends back to the hostel. i don't know what to make of it. not that i hated her before but i was always really scared of her. and now she's made me promise that my second speech will be even better. i only managed to say 'i'll try'. my second speech is doom!! >_<